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Mon, 07 Nov 2005 15:29:46 GMT

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Mon, 07 Nov 2005 03:15:43 GMT

derek is over.
we are watching legend of the hidden temple and i am making a microwave deepdish pizza and earlier we were looking for constellations in the sky which reminds me of the lyrics to that one jack johnson song and basically i am getting married to jack johnson and this is a really long sentence.

new journal, btw.
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Sun, 06 Nov 2005 00:53:04 GMT

friday was the most gorgeous fall day ever. derek & i went to algonkian park. later in the day i saw a play with sean & then we drank sparkling blueberry.. juice? from champange glasses.

today i worked until 4 and came home to spend time with my aunt whos visiting from massachusetts without my cousin alexandra who i miss because we're basically sisters. we are trying to apply to some similar colleges. oh, i registered late for december 3rd SATs at herndon high if anyone is taking them there...

i am so tired latey, seriously. i'm a zombie-thing.
my ipod comes tuesday-ish. :D and i am picking up my supra tonight! :D and i have new clothes even though i feel like i don't. and once i get my new paycheck i'm starting christmas shopping (& bargain shopping for me, because i love clothes and i need new shoes.) ♥

yesterday marks 2 months till i'm 18 & tomorrow marks 5 months of my grandma's death.

Wed, 02 Nov 2005 02:48:14 GMT

i gave blood today. :) i almost didn't have enough iron in me. i'm glad i did. i left 2nd block at 1 and i wasn't done until around 3. only because i stuck around with boo because she's afraid of needles. shit i just got soda up my nose.

i've been having really bad anxiety attacks lately.
so instead of stressing out i go shopping.

& i want to get

& i'll be getting these from gap tomorrow

except the mittens, not the fingers. because my fingers are like 4 inches shorter than the actual glove, LAME!

and i'm returning the shoes i bought for homecoming (i ended up using the shoes from 10th grade) & that'll give me an additional $80! hell yeah. shopping is so fucking wonderful. maybe i'll treat myself to a pair of A&F jeans... only if i lose 10 more pounds.

i look so gross & sickly because i'm so damn tired.
you know when you wake up in the morning and your voice is scratchy and rough-sounding. i have that permanently. i had it yesterday & i had it today. and my temperature was 99.7 and the lady almost didn't let me give blood because of that. i feel fine but my voice is acting lame! :(

i am in-fucking-love with this song.

Mon, 31 Oct 2005 20:36:51 GMT

homecoming was amazing, handsdown.

these pictures do absolutly no justice. i had the best time, better than i thought it could end up being. really, it was amazing and i love my friends and everyone looked so beautiful. i stopped caring that i looked ugly and plain and that my makeup was subpar and that my dress was too short and that i messed up my shoes and i seriously fucking danced to my little hearts content. my legs still hurt today. it was incredible. thank you to everyone who made me have a good time. :) you know who you are... ;)

kelly, me, laura, becky, helen
♥

my boo at dinner!

boo & squishy = bff.

my little sister kimi and her boyfriend, ryan!

ryan, kimi, krystyna (her bff), and tony (her bff & krystyna's bf).

tehehhe i love boo!

HAHA RYAN WOLFE IS SUCH A CREEP!

after homecoming laura and i met up with derek and mike at taco bell and then came to my house to watch the shining. and that morning derek, laura, and i decided to go to sixflags and it was a lot of fun fun fun but NOOOOO we got fucked up on the way home with the stupid inner and outer loops. i fucking broke my (gel) nail so hardcore, it still hurts. oh well, it was so much fun i ♥ them!

okay, its halloween and i have work, boo! :(

Sat, 29 Oct 2005 15:06:29 GMT

it really sucks to lose your homecoming football game 0-42. especially with all the hype and rumors being that we should cream them. to be honest, most the players were fucking lazy last night. disappointingggg. but the pep rally was still amazing!

nate & megan, awww! ♥

me, thanks jamie, in government. my hair! jackie re-did it wednesday night.

senior hallway was tokyo, godzilla is eating elizabeth!

and here, he is eating me!

kristen & josh!

nate & brian.

clinton.

jamie, who can never smile in pictures, & clinton.

caroline (S), elizabeth (E), me (N), sharmila (I), alexis (O), amanda (R), not pictured = lucy (S).

laura & mike.

dwight & alexis.

i wanted a picture of the senior class, .. & this is what ms. flor gave me.
haha oh well!

surprise jamie.

homecoming game when they announced homecoming queen.
becky (L), caitlin (A), drake (U), michael (R), sean (A)!

laura didn't win homecoming queen but she's still number 1 to me. ♥

tonight is going to be amazing, i'm not letting anything bring me (or any one in my group) down. seriously. we're seniors and its our night to have a fucking amazing time & we're seriously going to. we don't need boys! GET DOWN GIRL, GO 'HEAD, GET DOWN!

ps - of course i get a zit on my nose the morning of homecoming!

Wed, 26 Oct 2005 00:59:25 GMT

it's fucking freezing cold outside & raining. i hate rain! stupid shit made me almost ruin my new shoebabies! except mine are an off white/cream color.

so i'm in a freaking good mood right now. today was a good day. school was fun & after school was fun & i have nothing to complain about at all in life right now. there are a few things i wish i could change but i'm not going to let it drag me down. i've got a good fucking life and i'm going to take advantage of it. homecoming is sooooo damn close! i can't wait. hopefully my shoes come tomorrow! and hopefully my car is ready by tomorrow!

2 months, 1 week, & 3 days till i'm legal. :p

today was decade day at school & the senior class wore togas. i did not because i am not outgoing enough to do something like that. damn me & my insecurities, it was so much fun though :) i got to wear my new shoes atleast! uhm, after school i went to sean's & we hung out with ryan kelly and had a nice time. we went to ryan's new house in ashburn and its GORGEOUS! seriously! his mom is so cute, too! then i came home & i'm trying to do homework but i seriously have the worst ADD right now....

my baby shoooooooes!

jamie!

alexis - "KATI, THAT IS BLACK PEOPLE LOTION!!" i ♥ cocoa butter!

alexis didn't wear a toga, but a totally bitchin' 80's dress!

kyle & katy (look like they are actually bro & sis)

ew, ignore my angry face.

kissy! alexis' mom & my mom work together, weird!

sean playing xtreme yahtzee :D

me & sean's totally kickin' bike...

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DONE!

Tue, 25 Oct 2005 02:55:52 GMT

I GOT MY OWN CAR!!!
so i'm driving home from work & i turn onto my street & i think "where is my dad?" because he usually parks on the street. so then i make my turn to pull into the driveway when i realize there is a car in my spot. a pretty car. and this car HAPPENS TO BE MY NEW CAR :) well its not new, its an 81 toyota supra. but its fucking beautiful and its mine; no longer shall i drive my moms passport around! atleast until my trans am is fixed, haha. awh so happy though. such a cute surprise! i wasn't even expecting it! my daddy & mommy are so cute. yay yay yay. i mean i knew we were going to get me a supra until the TA was fixed but i didn't know when!

so so soooo exciting!
i don't get it until this weekend though. dad has to do some fixings. and whenever he says fixings i don't get the car. we're still 'fixing' the trans am. hopefully this supra isn't a bitch like the ta is.

EXCITED KATI

Sun, 23 Oct 2005 21:37:14 GMT

i saw mrs. larson at gap today while working and it was one of the best things. i really do look up to mrs. larson, she's amazing. and it was nice to catch up with her and she's so sweet. and i finally got to see her baby, he's adorable.

this seriously made my entire shitty day at work. it made it all worth while. :)
some people are so beautiful & strong. i strive to be one of them.

Sat, 22 Oct 2005 04:04:11 GMT

i just spent the last 20 minutes taking care of my piss drunk mom who puked all over my dad's car/herself. and the only things she had to say for herself were "i'm so embarassed, my own daughter is taking care of me!!!" & "i'm just playing, i'm just being silly, i'm fine!!! -stumble/stutter-."

ohhhhhhhhhhhh this is comedy!
tomorrow she will have the worst hangover ever!

Thu, 20 Oct 2005 03:37:00 GMT

name 10 things that bring you a moment of joy, and tag 5 friends to do the same. (thanks kerry ♥ i miss you & i can't wait to see you at our homecoming!!)

the weather.
hs football games.
crucial mix.
gas prices lowering.
hot cocoa.
environmental class.
homecoming plans.
friends♥.
old photographs.
beer pong.

derek, laura, becky, emma, & rachel.

i'm striving to be beautiful (to me). and every where i look i'm failing! more more more. honestly, i can't imagine life without crucial mix anymore, its seriously a neccesity to my day. what else do i want to become every day ordinaries? laura fender. i'd say derek but he already is. over & out; i'm going to grab life by the fucking handles and - not ride - but guide this damn thing.

ps - i need a new mix cd, before i over play this one. any one willing?
it's not the fall that hurts, it's when you hit the ground.

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leave it to my little sister to give me a dead frog!

Wed, 19 Oct 2005 02:48:17 GMT

today i had a really good day. honestly, i havn't had a good day like this in such a long time. i havn't been in a mood this good in a really long time, either. i took the day off from school and caught up on my sleep and filled up my gas tank, and got some tropical smoothie, made amends with sean & now we're friends. really, today was amazing. it was beautiful outside.

and i'm looking forward to the rest of.. well anything. this friday is the football game at parkview, sunday is a show and i get to see matt!, the 29th is homecoming and hopefully the 30th is six flags, and the day after that is halloween! yay.

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Sat, 15 Oct 2005 20:35:08 GMT

i can't get this sick-to-my-stomach feeling to go away.
it's a fucking beautiful fall day.
and because i suck at living i have no one to enjoy it with. :/
(i hope you're okay, mark said you weren't.)

today work was horrible and because of today i want to find a new job.
my american eagle credit card came in the mail so i feel like shopping to cheer myself up. one problem, i've never felt, looked, or been so fat in my entire life.

i just saw a squirrel jump from one part of my deck to the other and it was cute.

this is so scattered, just like me.
2 months & 2 weeks until i'm 18 & then i can buy ciggerettes and smoke until my lungs are black to match my heart.

Wed, 12 Oct 2005 21:23:26 GMT

man, lj is so fucking boring lately.

Tue, 11 Oct 2005 22:26:08 GMT

23 minutes & 32 seconds, 1.29 miles (average of 38mph), & i burned 121 calories! actually, thats really slow.

okay, sunday night after beerpong laura & i helped this (totally cute) guy, hoey, study for his religion test the next day. we were all slightly, if not completely, intoxicated. so we helped him study until about 2:30 in the morning & well - he just gave laura a call to let her know that we helped him get a 93! HA. i am studing drunk from now on. :p

laura and i are making "crucial mix" & "crucial mix #2"
so far today has been equally as pointless as this entry.
AHHHHGGGHH i still havn't done my english project due last friday. >:o

OHMAN! this is fucking HOT, i want to buy every matching piece. or atleast this. mmmm i like the white one!

AND THESE ARE A MUST FOR DANSING IN THE UNDERPANTS!

Mon, 10 Oct 2005 23:54:49 GMT

DEFFINATLY HAD A CRUCIAL TIME AT RADFORD WITH LAURA. i don't feel like typing everything up but i had a great time & i loved the campus. deffinatly a school i will look into. plenty of friends seasons 2&3, beer pong deffinatly needs to become more frequent, and i fucking owned for never playing it before. OH and there needs to be more dansing on tables with everyone screaming along to journey! fab fab fab. oh, i deffinatly spent $30 on pizza in 2 nights. cute.

i love you laura fender, thank you. <33333333333333333333
why isn't itunes opening??!?!

Sat, 08 Oct 2005 15:28:12 GMT

RADFORD FOR THE WEEKEND WITH MY BOO LAURA :)
i'll be back some time on monday.

Thu, 06 Oct 2005 19:12:29 GMT

okay so taking on head yearbook photographer & head newspaper photographer (& i'm not even in that class) was deffinatly foolish of me because ohmygod the stress is coming full swing. plus working & school work. i have me a nice little stress-headache going on, complete with eye-twitching. my yearbook teacher says eye-twitching often happens from lack of sleep/fatigue. and well sorry body, but i don't have time to be tired or sleep anymore!

its so fucking hot in my house.
i have lots of mini-essays to write by 2nd block tomorrow & i work until 10:30. i might just pull an all-nighter or something. i got me some caffine pills and such, i'm set! i've mixed in "hang self" & "have panic attack" somewhere in my to-do list.

i managed to have a little fun in stats class today (joke of a class)...

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Tue, 04 Oct 2005 22:06:00 GMT

i have a list of all the boys i've ever kissed. cute, i feel like i'm 12. except i really hope no 12 year old has kissed 7 boys. i mean, i was 14 by the time i got my first!

i'm watching alfie. i can't decide who's more gorgeous - jude law or sienna miller. honestly. if i could look like ANYONE, i'd pick sienna miller in a heartbeat. shes naturally radiant. i wish! oooh gorgeous.

field trip to banshee reeks today. it was actually really cool. thats the kind of science i'm in to. it just sucked because i didn't want to be there today, with all my classmates, feeling like a total nerd for wanting to dig in the dirt and identify things.

i cannot wait for homecoming where i can danse to my little hearts content.

always saying little girl don't step into the club
i'm just trying to find out why
'cause dancin's what i love

Sat, 01 Oct 2005 04:02:21 GMT

government - 94
ap literature - 73 [explained below]
advanced marketing - 96
environmental - 95
statistics - 97
photojournalism - 99

ap literature interim grades don't reflect how we'll you're doing in the class because a lot of people are missing grades simply because they havn't done them yet [such as poetry readings (mines next class) & a seminar i missed while absent, etc] so basically its better than that. :D i am very proud of me. thats a first.

i love my best friends laura and derek, & nights like tonight.

Fri, 30 Sep 2005 15:55:05 GMT

homecoming dress!!

i am glowing i am so white.
and i got a smaller size so its not as baggy.
my dad says its like a slip, bahahahhahaa.
i need to start exercising.

shoe shopping this weekend :D

Wed, 28 Sep 2005 21:45:50 GMT

our big screen tv came today. and by big i mean 62 inches and the thing could probably eat me if it had a mouth! sadly, our furniture won't be here for a couple more weeks. i can't wait! after 17 years and we'll have a finished basement!

SORRY THIS IS SO FUCKING LONG

my mood swings are getting really annoying lately. i'll be perfectly fine & happy and then suddenly i'll be down and depressed and feel like i've never felt so alone before in my life. i need a constant companion. someone constantly talking with me and laughing with me and having fun with me. i feel so annoying lately. i want a best friend at my school. it gets annoying to be talking with someone and have their friends come up and together walk away. it happens more than 5 times a day and i hate it. it makes me want to disappear. I HAVE NO ONE.

i don't know. i'm not numb, i'm not sad, i guess i'm just down.
i'll get over it eventually. maybe when summertime roles around again.

one year ago
its just depressing because i feel myself turning into what i was this time last year. obsessed with calories and waking up skinnier every morning and exercising and having pretty things and pretty clothes and making sure i attempt to look nice every day and constantly depending on my music to accomodate my mood. i feel myself slipping from school work and everything important to me and closing myself up. a year ago today ... i don't feel like opening up anymore. i just feel like holding everything in. i am stupid. everything i say is stupid. i am mean, i am standoffish, i am self centered. i am horrible. i hate myself. really i do. maybe if i shed off the pounds, the horrible me will shed away, too.

and whats more annoying.... people [well, boys] constantly come up to me in school "hey kati you look really pretty today" [odd because its usually a day that i throw my face on and stick my hair in a yucky ponytail and grab a sweatshirt..] and its just annoying to get that every day and then feel completely alone. its just weird. and then, we had homecoming court nominations & i didn't make it to the second round - okay whatever, not a big deal i wasn't expecting to; it was just annoying that everyone kept coming up to me "kati! why weren't you on the list for homecoming nomination?!" and i'm like WHAT THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO SAY TO THAT?! it just makes me want to dig my self a hole even more. i don't know why.

EDIT so i just realized how sickly dependent on people i am. this entire week i have been arguing with people that its horrible how dependent on [certain] people i am [coughseancough] and how its unhealthy and that i need to be able to be me on my own. and then i go and write this bullshit. if i don't have [sean] i need someone else? NO. no. no. i am so angry with myself.

i love the way damien rice says "eskimo friend" in the song "eskimo".
i want some tropical smoothie, or maybe starbucks.

~~shit do your fucking gov't homework, failure!~~ 4.5 hours later i finally sit down to do my gov't homework, and in less than 30 minutes i finish. g'damn me and my procrastination.

Mon, 26 Sep 2005 19:18:34 GMT

those are from early saturday.

today was unexepectedly good. it included: learning to use compasses with megan during environmental & gossping like usual, exploding soda and cleaning with tissues with laura in stats class, running to a lunch with alexis, and dansing with kelly in the hallways during photojournalism [& almost getting eaten by ms. braxton!] i am good under pressure. :p

i've worn these jeans for about 5 or 6 days straight. i need to go buy another pair. i will once my a.e. card comes in. i will feel so cool when i get my a.e. card and just spend whatever i want. and then i will cry when i get my bill. paychecks thursday. i still feel like i need to shop more.

last pictures of sean & i together ever;

i can't take my mind off of you...

these are from today, before school. ew.

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well thats the most random thing ever. if i've ever had a moodswing, that was it. except i'm not angry; i usually associate mood swings with happiness and anger. but this is not anger, or happiness. its emptiness. scared, afraid, empty, lost, confused, sad. sad. sad. suddenly i felt like my world was ending and i wanted to burst into tears.

in result i had to turn off death cab/damien rice & turn on some no doubt. but its not making a difference really.

i want a friend and a hug and some ben & jerries icecream.